odessanovel Chapter 181 He never doubted himself; he doubted the world.
Chapter 181 He never doubted himself; he doubted the world.
“I often feel that the world is unfair to me. When I first experienced this, I felt sad and sorrowful. I think I am an unblessed orphan.”
"But now that I think about it, Jiang Ci, I should thank you."
—Shenxi's Diary
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Waves rolled and crashed against the rocks, sending up plumes of mist. White seagulls, in small groups, perched on the sand, pecking at the lazy little fish in the shallows.
The soft sunlight shone through the huge sea-view glass, illuminating the drowsy man.
The handsome man suddenly opened his clear, black-and-white eyes.
The blinding light shone in, and he frowned, raising his hand to half-shield his eyes. The unfamiliar yet familiar environment suddenly caused him a sharp pain in his heart.
He took a deep breath and subconsciously touched the other half of the bed.
empty.
There is no temperature.
Jiang Ci closed his eyes and leaned wearily against the bed.
In a silent environment.
The man's voice was particularly somber in the darkness. He gave a faint laugh: "It's the same again."
His dark eyelashes fluttered, revealing an unyielding fog and hatred in his eyes.
He should have died on that day, but he was reborn in the memories he had experienced.
That woman disappeared again.
Jiang Ci lowered his eyes listlessly. The repeated restarts and cycles of reincarnation had exhausted him. He could never catch up with her.
He unconsciously touched his smooth wrist.
That was a habitual action he took when he was thinking about the future.
He stood tall and elegant, dressed neatly in front of the full-length mirror. The man in the mirror did not have the oppressive and aggressive air of the man from the next five years.
He was tired, and Shen Xi was tired too.
"What did you use to deceive Shen Xi through repeated reincarnations?"
In the quiet air, only Jiang Ci remained silent.
Three minutes later, it was still quiet.
Jiang Ci's narrow eyes held a hint of sarcasm: "Someone who calls himself the Heavenly Dao of the World is actually acting like a coward at this time?"
Five years later, on the day Shen Xi left, he suddenly realized that everything was just a cruel twist of fate.
Life is utterly meaningless.
He had just been congratulated on the birth of his son when his wife disappeared without a trace, and his memory began to decline.
Looking back, he felt that his wife, who had been by his side for the next five years, was a stranger.
Like a puppet controlled by emotions, he only has a physical body identical to his wife.
Then came her return without any memory.
She didn't even know she had a husband and children.
They were like toys being manipulated by unseen forces; once they were out of control, everything returned to square one.
After Shen Xi left, Jiang Ci discovered that everyone in that world had their memories of Shen Xi erased, and things were always used to fill in the gaps where things didn't make sense.
He never doubted himself; he doubted the world.
So, that night, after settling his affairs, he cut his wrists.
Ironically, his life had some value; he heard the piercing, suffocating mechanical sounds with his own ears.
All over the world, the frantic sirens pierced our hearts.
His wrist rested on the brown sofa, bright red blood soaking a large area of the carpet. He closed his eyes and looked out at the chilly wind, feeling a pang of sadness.
He thought, "Today should be a sunny day."
It's raining, what a pity.
The damp rain that day seemed to have splashed into his eyes. He suddenly saw clearly through the rain curtain that a little girl in a misty blue dress was as beautiful as a princess who had just come out of a castle.
She waved to him with a radiant smile.
"Your name is Jiang Ci? That's a beautiful name."
Hello, my name is Shen Xi.
When I woke up, it felt like a long dream.
Jiang Ci walked out of the island, hands in his pockets, and indifferently headed towards the beach.
Dididi
Dididi
Dididi
Realizing the male lead had suicidal tendencies, and finding the plot unbearable, he quickly appeared.
"Stop!!! Male lead, stop right there!"
Jiang Ci ignored him and continued forward. The midday sun was shining brightly, and the sea was calm. He stepped into the deep sea.
The plot was terrifying; he simply couldn't let the male and female leads continue like this.
The plot that stole its energy, changed the world, and altered the female lead's storyline had already been punished by the world's consciousness due to Jiang Ci's suicide.
The world needs to be set right.
"Please, have mercy, please don't go any further." The character in the story was in tears, almost kneeling down to beg the old man.
It watched as Jiang Ci continued forward, on the verge of death.
It felt as if its eyes had closed, and it rattled off a rapid string of words: "Stop!!! I can let you see Shen Xi. Shen Xi is still alive, and you can meet again. If she's dead, you won't be able to see her anymore. Please think it over, sir!!!"
The plotline makes me feel like I've gotten so used to being subservient to this young couple that now I could make it kneel down and beg Jiang Ci without batting an eye.
If this continues, its only world will be destroyed.
We finally managed to drive that bad guy away, we can't let this end like this.
Fortunately, under the bright sunshine, Jiang Ci stopped.
He gazed at a point on the horizon with a distant look in his eyes. "I don't care what you are, but if I may be frank, you are the masterminds behind our unrest. I have only one request: I want Shen Xi, I only want Shen Xi whole and complete."
"I want her to come back safe and sound."
The salty, damp air from the sea stung my tear ducts.
The plotline hesitated, looking at the silent male lead: "It's possible... but at the time, my ability was only enough to protect the female lead."
He felt utterly pathetic.
He was afraid that Jiang Ci would go mad, and that after this world ended, they would truly have no chance to meet again.
Jiang Ci nodded: "What do you mean?"
The plot is hesitant: "I recently told Shen Xi that she had to make a choice, and my energy was only enough for her to return to one world. I found Shen Xi in another world. She was actually originally from this world, but because the world line that stole my energy changed the female lead of that world, it abandoned Shen Xi in another world. It secretly switched the world and brought the female lead it chose, who later became Shen Lu, to this world."
Seeing the man's face growing increasingly grim, it still forced itself to continue speaking.
"In exchange, I made a deal with Shen Xi, who initially didn't understand the situation. I wanted her to help me correct the so-called plotline, and I would guide you to regain your memories, remember Shen Xi, and make her the female lead again. But I didn't expect that Shen Lulu in that plotline would resist so stubbornly and actually attack Jiang Du..."
"Finally, I used the energy I had saved up to bring the injured Shen Xi to this place. However, I was in a dormant state due to insufficient energy at the time, and Shen Xi also returned to her childhood due to her injuries."
After a while.
Jiang Ci's eyes were red: "And then?"
The plotline became even more frightened, and it awkwardly said, "Hey, didn't I just wake up a while ago?"
It materialized and scratched its bald, shiny head: "I'll let Shen Xi choose a world to stay in, Shen Xi... Shen Xi, she..."
Jiang Ci swept a sinister glance over them:
"Was your tongue pulled out?"
The plot is so heartbreaking: "Shen Xi jumped into the sea."
It was shocked when it found out. Why choose neither world and jump into the sea?
It couldn't sense Shen Xi's thoughts. When she said goodbye to Jiang Du, it thought she had chosen to return to the world where Grandma lived.
Jiang Du's face was unusually pale, frighteningly so.
He thought he should know.
Shen Xi didn't want to make that choice; she wanted to take a gamble.
Instead of wanting to die.
The gamble was successful, and everyone was happy.
The gamble failed, so what... so what if she just disappears?
Anyway, in her eyes everything was normal.
The plot unfolds as the man seems to suddenly lose his strength, his spine gradually bending.
He was sad.
A long, long time later,
Jiang Ci covered her eyes, her voice choked with emotion:
"Was she in pain before she left?"
The plot seemed to pause for a moment, then froze, as if it wasn't there.
It's not a person, so what can we do if we can't sense it?
Jiang Ci also realized the problem. He wiped his face hard, thinking that the seawater was too salty, so salty that he felt like crying.
After a long silence,
The storyline says, "I brought Shen Xi back, but according to the plot, she will be waiting for you in five years."
"I know I've made many mistakes, using my male and female leads to make up for my own inadequacies. So, leave the rest to me. I'll make sure you have a happy ending, even if it takes all my energy."
Jiang Ci remained indifferent; there were still five years left.
Five years is too long.
As the sun sets, the man walks alone into the distance, his shadow stretching long. In the twilight, only lonely tears remain.
……
Five years later,
This was an ordinary day, nothing out of the ordinary.
Shen Xi carried a large canvas bag as she walked home from the company.
On the way, it was too hot, so she bought a mousse ice cream and mixed the two flavors together.
The cool, refreshing sensation made Shen Xi sigh with comfort.
Traffic was congested on the road. Shen Xi held up her ice cream cup, chewing as she looked towards the shade to face the sun.
The phone in my bag is vibrating.
Shen Xi answered the phone.
A soft, sweet voice came from across the street: "Mommy, Grandma and Grandpa are talking about making hot pot today. They asked Xiaoman to ask you what time you're coming home."
Immediately afterwards, the voice on the other end lowered deliberately, as if whispering: "Xiaoman hid a box of ice cream for Mom, and it's Mom's favorite vanilla flavor."
Shen Xi stood under the shade of a tree, guiltily putting down the ice cream scoop she had in her mouth. She hummed twice and praised softly.
"Baby, you're so great! You managed to hide the ice cream from Grandma and Daddy. Remember to hide it well, I'll be home in about ten minutes."
Xiaoman's voice was clear and crisp. He knelt on the corner of the sofa with his legs bent and earnestly assured his mother, "Mom, don't worry. If Grandma and Grandpa find out, Xiaoman will say it's his."
His chubby little face looked very serious, but he was still young, and his family only thought he was cute.
After hanging up the phone, Shen Xi quickly finished the ice cream in her hand; she could have another one when she got back.
I didn't have the driver pick me up today, that's why.
On the path lined with red and gray stone bricks, Shen Xi, on a whim, tiptoed and hopped from one brick to the next.
A gentle breeze blew as Shen Xi skipped and hopped along the brick path. Ahead lay the cement road, and turning left would lead her home.
She put on her baseball cap, walked along looking at the shadows of the trees, and suddenly remembered the last time she risked her life.
She wondered if she would ever have the chance to travel the world with the person she loved.
Fortunately, the gamble paid off.
The old woman was brought into this world, but the children she adopted have long since grown up in another world, each with their own lives.
Everyone is doing well.
Shen Lu from this world is brought back to her original world by the correction, and the plot is deliberately designed to make things difficult for her.
Instead of erasing Shen Lu's memories, she allowed her to return to the moment she had traveled through time, carrying the memories of this world with her.
On that freezing winter night, Shen Lu knelt on the ground, looking at the novel in her arms, howling with heart-wrenching pain. She humiliated herself and huddled in the street, unwilling to face the reality.
As for Su Su, in this expanded world, Su Su is still with Sheng Shen, and their relationship is very good, with them constantly chasing each other.
However, Shen Xi and Su Su's relationship was not as close as it had been after their first meeting.
They don't have many opportunities to interact.
Shen Xi received a phone call during her pregnancy from Su Su, who had been tricked into marrying someone in her hometown. Su Su nearly burned to death when she refused. The bodyguard risked everything to save her.
Shen Xi anonymously sent Sheng Shen a letter and several photos.
Inside is a photo of Su Su in the fire.
People always feel regret for what they have lost; the woman he loved was almost burned to death.
Sheng Shen later kept a mistress in a secluded house, protecting her and their child very well.
That's the end of the story.
Shen Xi thought of the awkward man from last night, and she couldn't help but smile. Five years had almost passed.
Shen Xi was drenched in sweat from the heat of the journey. When she arrived home, she greeted her family and then quickly went upstairs to take a shower.
The hot pot smell downstairs is strong, and the ingredients are plentiful.
The aroma was so strong that you could smell it even in the rooms on the second floor with the doors closed. I heard they hired a professional chef to make this authentic hot pot.
Shen Xi hummed a song as she quickly took a shower. She walked out in flip-flops, waving a white towel as she dried her hair.
Are you in a good mood today?
A detached voice came from the sofa in the bedroom.
Shen Xi was so frightened that she almost grabbed a towel and ran away, but after seeing that it was Jiang Ci sitting there, she said in an annoyed tone, "What are you doing sitting there? You scared me to death."
Jiang Ci didn't look too good, mainly because she had been going out frequently recently and had stood him up countless times.
This has led Jiang Ci to jokingly refer to her as Miss Pigeon.
"What's there to be afraid of? If you're upright, you have nothing to fear."
Shen Xi ignored him and let him fume by himself.
He's been getting a bit carried away lately.